Or- it’s realizing you never were in the spotlight and maybe never will be, torn between wondering if it’s because you were never good enough, or failed at achieving your true potential. Was my life one big joke, all of my dreams out of reach and impossible from the beginning? Maybe my efforts at achieving something are all part of some sick joke, and the universe is laughing at me. Or is my life wasted, all the potential, the dreams, the energy, poured out into a void?